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When Rufus wakes up in the morning, the first thing he remembers is that he wants to show his father his new cap. Rufus puts the cap on and runs down the hall yelling, "Daddy! Daddy!" When he goes into his parents' bedroom he sees his mother alone in her bed, and he thinks her face looks wrinkled, "like cracked china." Mary tells him to go wake little Catherine.
When Mary has both children beside her, she puts an arm around each of them and tells them that their father can never come home again because God has taken him. Rufus asks if their father is dead, and his mother says yes, and pulls the children tight against her. Rufus cannot make the word "dead" mean anything for him. Mary smoothes the hair back from Rufus's forehead and says that he and Catherine probably will not understand for a while, but that they should ask her if they have any questions. Then she tells Rufus to help Catherine get dressed, and they go down to breakfast.
The narration shifts to little Catherine's perspective for breakfast. Everything is so still that it makes Catherine feel uneasy and sad. She eats not because she is hungry but because she can sense how important it is for her to be good on this day, as her father is not home. She thinks that the noise Aunt Hannah makes when she eats her toast and sips her coffee is scary and sad. Catherine wishes her father would walk in the door and eat a big breakfast and make everything all right. She repeatedly wonders why her father would have chosen to go up to heaven instead of coming home.
After Hannah finishes eating, she explains to the children exactly how Jay died: he lost control of the car, hit his chin, and was thrown clear of the vehicle before it went up the embankment and fell beside him. She asks the children if they understand, and she tells them to ask her questions because she knows it is difficult to understand. Rufus asks her what "embackmut," "instintly," and "concussion" mean, and she tells him. Then Catherine asks when their father is coming home. Hannah tells the girl again that Jay cannot come home, and that she knows it is difficult to understand. Rufus asks if it was the concussion that put his father to sleep, and Hannah says yes. Then Rufus says that if it was the concussion, then it was not God that took Jay away.
These two chapters illustrate how incomprehensible the finality of death is to small children. Catherine eats her breakfast because she can feel the serious mood in the household, but she herself does not feel a sense of loss. Rufus says that the word "dead" is meaningless to him. The children's lack of reaction and their descriptions of the adults around them highlight, by contrast, how much the loss affects Mary and Hannah. Hannah gets suddenly angry with Rufus for wearing his cap; Mary can hardly stand to use the word "dead" to describe Jay, and she can barely keep from crying when she tells Rufus and Catherine the bad news.
The children apparently have different degrees of understanding what has happened to their father. Catherine thinks he is temporarily gone, as we see in the fact that she wonders when he is coming home. She watches and listens to Hannah with a sense of curiosity; she can tell that something is wrong but she does not connect the feeling with the news that her mother gave her. When Aunt Hannah tells the children that Jay "had an accident," the first thing Catherine thinks is that he soiled himself, because that is what the expression means to her. The innocence of Catherine's thoughts paired with the severity of the situation highlights how difficult the death will be to accept and understand.
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