January 1: New Year’s Day

I hereby pronounce today Black Thursday. Jeremy isn’t speaking to me. He can’t believe I walked out on the party and didn’t stick around to kiss him at midnight. I kind of think he could have come after me, but he doesn’t see it like that. Then I called Nikki for support, but she was all miserable about Luke not finding her at midnight. Ever since their big moment that wasn’t, she’s been hoping that the “disequilibrium” between them would get straightened out and he would realized he’s madly in love with her. So when I admitted where Luke was, thinking she’d be psyched that he wasn’t off kissing some other girl, she pretty much freaked on me. I kept apologizing and pleading my innocence, but the more I backpedaled, the guiltier I sounded. Yuck.