The next day, Billy comes to the house with a BB gun and starts shooting up the house. To retaliate, Lori grabs Dad’s pistol and shoots it at Billy’s feet. As he runs away, Jeannette grabs the pistol and shoots at him too. The neighbors call in the incident, and the police come by with Mom and Dad to tell them they need to come by the magistrate the next morning. That night, they pack up and leave for Phoenix.
Dad’s job at the Barite mine reveals a societal layer to the Walls family’s poverty because of the mine’s exploitive treatment of its workers. In Battle Mountain, as Jeannette explains it, the Wallses live in a mining camp, wherein the company owns the miners’ homes and the commissary, the only place to buy groceries. Because the mine determines their employees’ wages and cost of living, the mine can adjust prices to drive miners into debt, essentially making them indentured servants. Dad rarely drinks when they first move to Battle Mountain, and yet they consistently run out of money and sometimes owe the mine on payday. Between the commissary’s prices and Mom and Dad’s terrible budgeting skills, the family has no real opportunity to profit from Dad’s job. While Mom and Dad often unfairly scapegoat the government and society for creating their problems, the mining camp’s financial system shows that structural issues at the very least worsen the Walls family’s situation.
Dad’s assessment of Jeannette and Brian’s fire as them getting too close to “the boundary between turbulence and order” provides a useful description of the Walls children’s lives. Dad speaks to Jeannette and Brian in a quiet and grave tone, which may indicate that he was afraid for their lives, or it could also suggest a moment of self-reflection. Dad intentionally subjects his kids to a life of chaos and lawlessness, not unlike the boundary between turbulence and order, and this incident left Brian closer to death than his usual antics. Unlike with the fire from Jeannette’s first memory, Dad characterizes this explosion as an elemental force instead of an adversary. His recognition that the explosion is not something the children can fight but something they should avoid comes close to admitting that sometimes staying in the realm of rules and order is necessary for safety. Unfortunately, he never follows through on this realization, and maintains the family’s status quo.
Around this part of the memoir, Jeannette begins to question Dad’s infallibility, particularly at the Hot Pot. At first when Dad throws Jeannette into the water, she reaches for him, instinctively counting on her father to keep her safe. Her surprise and fear at Dad’s repeated throwing shows that while Dad intended to teach Jeannette to swim, he actually taught Jeannette that he was willing to hurt her. After Jeannette’s terrifying ordeal, she doesn’t immediately allow Dad to hug her, a great contrast from her instant glee at Dad’s “snot locker” comment when she falls out of the car. Her hesitation to forgive Dad marks the first moment she questions his heroism and his ability to protect her. When Dad asks Jeannette why he would throw her into the water if not for her betterment, he equates her frustration over a traumatic experience with doubting his love, effectively manipulating Jeannette into forgiving him. Here Jeannette begins to learn that some of the fear and suffering Dad creates is because of his personal failures, and not for any greater purpose.
At this point, no one has talked to Jeannette about sex, and yet her unstructured upbringing has brought sexuality to her attention in ways that are both confusing and traumatizing. Mom’s explanation that “bad things” happen at the Green Lantern both intrigues and frightens Jeannette and Brian, leading them to spy on the women. Although Jeannette doesn’t understand what the women do, this early depiction of sex portrays it as something hurtful. Brian’s later anger at Ginger only increases Jeannette’s confusion because he refuses to explain why he’s angry. Whereas discussing the Green Lantern had once been a shared experience, Brian’s newfound understanding of sex work divides Jeannette and Brian. In this way, Jeannette’s early encounters with sex involve discomfort and isolation. Jeannette’s other early introduction to sexuality comes from Billy Deel. At only eleven, Billy acts sexually precocious, likely because of negative influence from his alcoholic father. When he forcibly kisses Jeannette, he calls it “rape,” increasing Jeannette’s association of sex with violence.