Summary: Chapter 18
Amir walks from Rahim Khan’s house to a small teahouse, thinking about how
responsible he was for Hassan’s death. He also goes over the evidence that Baba was
Hassan’s father: Baba’s paying for the surgery to fix Hassan’s lip, and his weeping
when Ali and Hassan left. Baba had said that theft was the only sin, and Amir thinks
how Baba stole from him a brother, from Hassan his identity, from Ali his honor.
Amir realizes he and Baba were more alike than he knew. They had both betrayed their
truest friends. What Rahim Khan wanted was for Amir to atone for Baba’s sins and his
own. On the ride back to Rahim Khan’s, Amir recognizes he is not too old to start
fighting for himself, and that somewhere in Kabul, a small part of Hassan remains.
He finds Rahim Khan praying and tells him he will find Sohrab.
Summary: Chapter 19
Rahim Khan arranges for an acquaintance named Farid to take Amir to Kabul.
Farid and his father had fought against the Soviets. Later, after Farid had
children, he lost two daughters and three fingers on his left hand to a land mine.
Amir is dressed in an Afghan hat called a pakol and wears a fake beard that reaches
down to his chest. Once in Afghanistan Amir says he feels like a tourist in his own
country. Farid asks sarcastically if, after twenty years in America, Amir still
thinks of Afghanistan as his country. He guesses that Amir grew up in a large house
with servants, that his father drove an American car, and that Amir had never worn a
pakol before. He points to an old man in ragged clothing and says that is the real
Afghanistan. Amir has always been a tourist there.
They stop for the night at the home of Farid’s brother, Wahid. The house is
small, with bare dirt walls and two lamps for light. Inside, Wahid’s wife and
another woman bring tea. The three men talk for a time, and Wahid asks Amir why he
has returned to Afghanistan. Farid says contemptuously that Amir is probably coming
to sell his land and run with the money back to America. Wahid snaps at Farid for
insulting a guest in his home, but Amir says he should have explained earlier. He is
going to find a Hazara boy, his illegitimate half-brother, so that he can take him
to Peshawar where people will take care of him. Wahid calls Amir a true Afghan and
says he is proud to have Amir stay in his home.
Wahid’s wife serves dinner to Farid and Amir, and Wahid says he and his family
ate earlier. While Amir eats, he notices Wahid’s three boys staring at his
wristwatch. He gives the boys the watch as a gift, though they lose interest
quickly. As Amir and Farid lie down to sleep, Farid says it was wrong of him to
assume Amir’s reason for returning and says he will help Amir find the boy. That
night, Amir dreams of a man shooting Hassan, and realizes he is the man in the
dream. He goes outside to think and hears two voices coming from the house, Wahid’s
and his wife’s. They are arguing about dinner. Because they gave Amir their food,
the children did not have any dinner. Amir realizes that the boys weren’t staring at
his watch, they were staring at his food. The next morning, before Amir and Farid
leave, Amir stuffs a wad of money under one of their mattresses.
Analysis
Another irony appears in this section: Amir realizes he is more like Baba than
he thought. However, what they share is betrayal of their best friends. Baba had
betrayed Ali, his closest friend since childhood, by sleeping with Sanaubar. As Amir
says, having sex with a man’s wife was the worst possible way an Afghan man could be
dishonored. Amir had similarly betrayed Hassan. But despite all Baba’s lies, Amir
sees that Baba was correct to say that Amir always let someone else fight his
battles for him. Though Amir never says so explicitly, he knows he is doing what
Baba would have done in the situation when he resolves to go to Kabul to find
Sohrab. The situation presents a further twist of irony in that Amir realizes he can
share in Baba’s greatest virtue, the courage to do what is right, only after he has
recognized that he shares Baba’s greatest failing as well. If Amir saves Sohrab,
both he and Baba will be pardoned, at least to some degree, for the ways they
betrayed their dearest and closest friends.
Amir’s guilt over the way he treated Hassan also plays a significant role in
his decision to return to Kabul. As Amir leaves Rahim Khan’s house, Amir wonders if
the chain of events that followed from his coercing Hassan and Ali out of Baba’s
house eventually led to Ali stepping on a landmine and to Hassan being shot. Had
Amir acted differently, Ali and Hassan never would have left for Hazarajat, and both
might still be alive now. Through this logic, Amir has made himself responsible for
their deaths. He realizes he cannot save them, but a piece of Hassan lives on in
Sohrab. By rescuing Sohrab, Amir will figuratively rescue Hassan as well. With this
in mind, and the knowledge that he still has time to begin fighting for himself,
Amir returns to Rahim Khan’s house to tell him he will make the trip back to
Afghanistan.
